Last night my boyfriend and I went on a double date with my parents, and it wasn't as bad as you think. We say Bedtime Stories and it was awesome! That gunia pig was sweet! Anyways afterwards we went to dinner at Red Lobster (yum) then went home. All in all, not that bad.
Tonight we have another double date, this time with friends. Then we're going to Yes Man, which has gotten some good reviews. Well...t.t.f.n.!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
La la la la LOVE!
Wow...I don't think I ever loved a guy until I got with my boyfriend. He's so amazing...and he keeps me calm, makes me want to be a better person. I know I got it right this time, he's the one I'm supposed to be with. It's weird because we're so different, he's nice, I'm a bitch, he forgives, I don't. But it's strange how well we click.
He accepts me and doesn't try to change me AT ALL. He supports me and most importantly, he understands me. He's my best friend and the love of my life. How did I get so lucky?
He accepts me and doesn't try to change me AT ALL. He supports me and most importantly, he understands me. He's my best friend and the love of my life. How did I get so lucky?
Sunday, December 14, 2008
I don't understand...but I'm trying
I don't understand how people can be so taken with their Christian faith, but I'm trying. At one time I to felt like all my problems had been solved, that there was a God that loved me and accepted me for who I was. But then a question I never had problems with before came up.
Who am I?
The Bible told me most of the things I felt, the things that made me me...were wrong. Love all, forgive, abstinance. The guilt I felt for the way I felt was tearing me apart. Where before I had peace, now there was only conflict, misery, but still I tried. It was for the greater good wasn't it? My key to heaven, to salvation?
I often cried myself to sleep, it was so hard, so very hard. I envied those it seemed to come so easy for then felt guilty for my envy.
Then my eyes opened, my mind cleared, and I remembered who I was. It happened at a youth group, a woman I had looked up to, someone I believed to be a woman of God, stated her step-daughter wasn't allowd to show affection to her girlfriend infront of her siblings. That being gay was an abomination because the Bible said so and it wasn't acceptable to God. This woman who stated she judged no one, would not even accept her step-daughter becuase of a stupid book. Like I said, my eyes opened. This wasn't me.
I'm a bitch and I'll admit it with pride. Pride, yes thats me. I am the reason strict religious parents keep such a close watch on their children, so they don't become like me. I don't forgive unless I feel like it. I don't turn the other cheek. I fight back, not back down. I believe in me. I am my own salvation. I don't a book written by fools to tell me how I should be.
But still I'm curious...as to how people can believe in something that goes against natural instincts. To blindly put their faith in something. So I watch. I go to the Solid Rock and listen and watch the faithful.
Who am I?
The Bible told me most of the things I felt, the things that made me me...were wrong. Love all, forgive, abstinance. The guilt I felt for the way I felt was tearing me apart. Where before I had peace, now there was only conflict, misery, but still I tried. It was for the greater good wasn't it? My key to heaven, to salvation?
I often cried myself to sleep, it was so hard, so very hard. I envied those it seemed to come so easy for then felt guilty for my envy.
Then my eyes opened, my mind cleared, and I remembered who I was. It happened at a youth group, a woman I had looked up to, someone I believed to be a woman of God, stated her step-daughter wasn't allowd to show affection to her girlfriend infront of her siblings. That being gay was an abomination because the Bible said so and it wasn't acceptable to God. This woman who stated she judged no one, would not even accept her step-daughter becuase of a stupid book. Like I said, my eyes opened. This wasn't me.
I'm a bitch and I'll admit it with pride. Pride, yes thats me. I am the reason strict religious parents keep such a close watch on their children, so they don't become like me. I don't forgive unless I feel like it. I don't turn the other cheek. I fight back, not back down. I believe in me. I am my own salvation. I don't a book written by fools to tell me how I should be.
But still I'm curious...as to how people can believe in something that goes against natural instincts. To blindly put their faith in something. So I watch. I go to the Solid Rock and listen and watch the faithful.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Show at The Rock
I'm going to a show at the Solid Rock tonight. It's a christian band but they're screamo so not like I'd be able to understand what they're saying anyway. The only reason why I'm going is to spend time with my boyfriend anyway. He's basically the only reason why I go to the Solid Rock anyway since the christian thing isn't for me. I usually go there on Saturdays so I can see him and the rest of my friends too. It's pretty chill most of the time.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Free Time
Since it's not busy at the moment I decided to write some more.
I'm listening to House of 1000 Corpses by Rob Zombie, this song so kicks ass, Living Dead Girl rocks too. They have some sexy beats.
Speaking of beats my new boyfriend play the drums and a bit of guitar not to mention how great his voice is. I could listen to him sing all day. I never thought it'd happen but I've turned into one of those girls who can't stop thinking about her guy and I call him which is wierd because I HATE talking on the phone. When ever I talk to him I have the biggest grin on my face. He said he does too.
Arg, I can't think of anything else to write so I guess I'm done for now.
I'm listening to House of 1000 Corpses by Rob Zombie, this song so kicks ass, Living Dead Girl rocks too. They have some sexy beats.
Speaking of beats my new boyfriend play the drums and a bit of guitar not to mention how great his voice is. I could listen to him sing all day. I never thought it'd happen but I've turned into one of those girls who can't stop thinking about her guy and I call him which is wierd because I HATE talking on the phone. When ever I talk to him I have the biggest grin on my face. He said he does too.
Arg, I can't think of anything else to write so I guess I'm done for now.
Whoa, long time no write
I decided to take a look on here and was surprised at how long it's been since I've gotten on here. Not to much has happened, I'm still working at nTelos but yeseterday I finally got to swice departments. I now work in Retail Support and I LOVE IT! I was SO tired of hearing stupid customers all day every day. It's WAY more relaxed over here and we get to listen to music!!! If they let customer care reps listen to music while they work it would probably be a less stressful job.
Another big change is since the last time I posted I've broken up with my boyfriend and started dating someone else and let me tell you this...I think I've finally got it right! I'm dating a guy who's been one of my best friends for a while now, I've loved him for a while but never told him. To make a long story short I told him and it's a good thing I did because it was almost to late. Now I'm happier then I've ever been!
Oh something else...I've looked into Satanism, even read the Satanic Bible and it...well it's me. Most of the stuff in it is stuff I've always thought and felt. It's amazing how right it feels. Oh and just so everyone knows, all the stuff about Satanism you see in the movies is complete BULLSHIT! Satanists DO NOT sacrifice animals and children or sacrifice ANYTHING period. They don't have huge bloody orgies either. Basically it's a religion that lets you be you and encourages you to do whatever the hell you want as long as it doesn't cause harm to anyone. It's pretty amazing. To learn a bit more visit this site:
http://www.religioustolerance.org/satanis4.htm
Another big change is since the last time I posted I've broken up with my boyfriend and started dating someone else and let me tell you this...I think I've finally got it right! I'm dating a guy who's been one of my best friends for a while now, I've loved him for a while but never told him. To make a long story short I told him and it's a good thing I did because it was almost to late. Now I'm happier then I've ever been!
Oh something else...I've looked into Satanism, even read the Satanic Bible and it...well it's me. Most of the stuff in it is stuff I've always thought and felt. It's amazing how right it feels. Oh and just so everyone knows, all the stuff about Satanism you see in the movies is complete BULLSHIT! Satanists DO NOT sacrifice animals and children or sacrifice ANYTHING period. They don't have huge bloody orgies either. Basically it's a religion that lets you be you and encourages you to do whatever the hell you want as long as it doesn't cause harm to anyone. It's pretty amazing. To learn a bit more visit this site:
http://www.religioustolerance.org/satanis4.htm
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
nTelos Drama
We're only in the second week of training at nTelos and I think one of the trainee's got fired.
I heard he went off on a couple of the other trainee's during a group game and when we all went up to moniter he had to go see one of the managers.
Today when we came back into the "classroom" after a soft skills class (the first time we've done that) our "teacher" talked to him out in the hall then me and one of my work friends saw him walking towards the parking lot. We don't know if he got fired or what.
I heard he went off on a couple of the other trainee's during a group game and when we all went up to moniter he had to go see one of the managers.
Today when we came back into the "classroom" after a soft skills class (the first time we've done that) our "teacher" talked to him out in the hall then me and one of my work friends saw him walking towards the parking lot. We don't know if he got fired or what.
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